First In Last Out.

I dread having to troubleshoot my home computer: don't know the system well since I used to have "24-7 tech support". When that strange grey patch appeared on my screen (now gone), I wasn't too pleased, in addition to the usual wild-eyed anxiety. So when I chose to ask my friend for help instead, coz I didn't want to ask anyone else, that subsequent brief exchange was an unexpected slap in my face. (Though my friend did help with the screen problem.)

Do you know what's worse than your ex not wanting to have anything to do with you? It's when your friends also start to act the same way, and you're being made to go through MORE BREAKUPS -- with your friends -- as if one wasn't enough. It's when you thought you couldn't possibly feel more alone, after losing the love of your life, and then you realise that you CAN feel even MORE ALONE. That's how I felt last night.

Is everyone else in on some charade? Have I been the fool who has so readily and gladly agreed to stay friends after breaking up? "We can still be friends, right?" Sincerely yours? No?

Have the courtesy to let me know -- even if I have to be the last one to know.